No Words

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Yesterday I had no words.  No sparks fueled my writing.  Exhausted at the end of a trying week, I finally put the words in God’s hands.  Taking my current novel I went to bed early.

I woke this morning with a headache.  I made up my mind I needed to go to Mass.  I like going to the early morning Mass.  I wondered if I should wake my husband.  Because he works nights we don’t get to go to Mass together very often.  I sipped my coffee.  The tug to wake him was strong.

Following the urging, I woke him asking, “Would you like to go to Mass with me?” He said “yes! What time is it?”  I did a happy dance in my head.

Once everything was placed into motion the words came.  There are more thoughts than can be placed in one post!  From my morning devotional, to the homily, and finally the bulletin, I am left figuring out where to start.  God took over today.

Here’s what I find interesting; all the pieces given me are different subjects linked by a common thread called Love.  I’m going to take this one step at a time.  This will be a mini-series on what I am beginning to grasp.

Where do I start?  At the beginning I suppose.  I have not been reading Jesus Today, by Sarah Young, in over a month.  For some reason I couldn’t pick it up.  I’d been reading the others in my stack instead.

This morning I was drawn to Jesus Today’s devotional 114.  I would not have understood the devotion without the experiences that followed.  I would not have been aware of God’s presence this morning had I passed over Jesus Today.  I hope I am explaining this right.  It is like a full circle.  In my heart I know the events would not have happened without the beginning with the devotion.  And that, my friends, would be a shame.

The devotion started with “MY WAYS ARE HIGHER THAN YOUR WAYS, and my thoughts than your thoughts – as the heavens are higher than the earth.” [Paraphrased from Isaiah 55:6-9 NKJV]  Then God discusses how we, His people, try to diminish God by seeing Him as predictable and understandable.  Being an analytical person, I do try to lean on my own understanding as much as possible.  But God does not think like I do.

Reading this I asked. Do I trust God?  There is no way I can understand God so why try?  As the reading continues, Jesus gives us hope:

Whenever you find yourself struggling to accept My ways…stop and remember who I am.  Bow your mind and heart…and worship Me – the mysterious, majestic, holy One who suffered and died for you.” [Portions of Jesus Today 114 by Sarah Young]

This is where I started my Mass today.  I could not understand what this meant for me.  I just knew it was important.  I took His advice.  I knelt to pray before the service started and remembered who God is.  I caught my breath, holding it as the Majesty of the King of Kings* washed into my being.  He cares for me.  The Everlasting Father** cares for me.  He loves me.  I could only whisper praise and thanksgiving to God.

Still feeling the mysterious presence of the Almighty I listened to the readings.  In the first reading the Lord tells Jeremiah; He has appointed him to be a prophet to the Nations (Jeremiah 1:4-5, 17-19). God is clear this will not be an easy path for Jeremiah but God promises to fortify him.

In the second reading, 1 Corinthians 12:31 through 13:13, the Apostle Paul describes the spiritual gift of Love.  Our Gospel reading today is Luke 4:21-30.  Jesus is reading and speaking in the synagogue in His hometown of Nazareth.  This is where at their questions he states “…no prophet is accepted in his own country…”  The people became so infuriated at his words; they rose up thrusting Him out of the City with the intention of throwing Him over the cliff.  He passes through them and goes His way.

I’m working out the threads between the scriptures, when the Deacon begins the homily declaring we have a big problem in our culture. Ah, I think, I know where this is going, the horrible abortion news this week. Then he says “It is religious indifference.”

Say What? So much for leaning on my own understanding!  He described the indifference in our culture. He said we see it all around us, in our media, work, government, friends and yes even in our own families.

It got me thinking about my own indifference and that in the people around me.  We want an easy faith.  We want a ‘santa’ god.  We want to be spoiled.  We want to ignore God.  We want to be lazy.  We are indifferent to the faith we say we follow.

And this was just the start of the homily. What did I learn from this one little piece?  I need to eradicate indifference for my faith.  I didn’t know it when I wrote my last post, Decision Time, but I was choosing between hiding my faith and expressing my faith. It was tempting to play it safe.  Depending on my choice, I could have been indifferent to my Lord.  Today confirms my decision to let my faith show in what I write.  This is not a time to hide.  The next step is to:

“Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding.” [Proverbs 3:5 NKJV]

Blessings,

Milly

P.S:  Jesus Today is written as if Jesus is talking to you.  He is the narrator.  That is why I used Jesus in the first person.

*I Timothy 6:14-16, and Revelation 19:15-17

**Isaiah 9:6

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