What to do?

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Sunrise Peeking into Cubicle Land  (Photo by Milly Moss)

Where do I start?  With a Princely quip, I suppose.  Overwhelmed by tasks my husband wanted to help and asked what we needed for the upcoming trip to Asheville.  I blurted “Floor Plans. They said to bring floor plans!” anxiety dripped from my voice as I wailed, “I don’t know what I want in a floor plan!”

The Eldest Prince was in the kitchen foraging for food.  He popped his head up over the refrigerator door.  “You’re talking about the Log Home Show right?”

“Yeah,” I said with a pout.  “They said to bring your floor plans.”

With a straight face, he quipped, “Huh! I thought that was what they’re supposed to do.”  Then he stuck his head back in the refrigerator.

I started to laugh as reality sank into my frazzled brain.  If they want me to buy their product or service, I need information.  It boils down to letting them do their jobs.  My job is not coming up with a floor plan.  It is their job to listen to us for what we want and figure out how to get us there.

This got me thinking about my goals for October.  I made plans to prepare for November 1st.  Here’s the status so far:

  • Get to chapter seventeen in the rewrite. I’ve gotten to chapter seven.
  • Prepare an outline for writing Targeted in the NaNoWriMo challenge. I haven’t touched it yet.  Yikes! I didn’t even signed up for NaNo yet! Oops!
  • My schedule is still a mess. There’s no fixing that now!
  • We fixed the sink! Yay! I really didn’t expect to do that this past weekend. It is good there is an Apprentice Plumber Prince in the realm. {little smile}
  • Did I prepare for the Home Show? No, not so much. I will go with an open mind and wing it!
  • And my trusty computer is acting up. Come on Panther let’s make it to Cyber Monday.
  • I’m not sure what to pack for the trip. So, I’ll be winging that too!
  • Oh and let’s not forget getting caught up at work! No, that hasn’t happened yet either.  Somehow, all my projects got complicated this week.

I look at my list and shake my head.  Frustration bubbles up.  I say to God.  “Dear God, I had a month and now there’s a little over a week left.  Where did I go wrong? I feel like a failure.”  I feel the chuckle more than I hear it.  It is like a breath on my cheek.  My heart jumps knowing He is near and cares about all my little messes.

At a meeting this week I heard: “I plan and God laughs.”  It causes me to smile.  In a regency romance book, I was reading about how a maid slows her lady with this phrase, “Fast makes slow and slow is fast.”

Methinks there is a message here.  “How do I slow down?  How will I get it all done?”  I ask.  “I need answers.”  In my soul there is a gentle voice tinged with frustration and amusement:

“… Martha, Martha, you are worried and troubled about many things. But one thing is needed, and Mary has chosen that good part…”*

Milly when will you rest at my feet?

I’m working on it!  Slowly but surely I am changing my Martha ways.  Every once in a while He reminds me sit with Him at His Feet and rest.  Let’s slow down for a few minutes today and rest with the Lord.

The Lord is my shepherd;

I shall not want.

He makes me to lie down in green pastures;

He leads me beside the still waters.

He restores my soul;

He leads me in the paths of righteousness

For His name’s sake. **

 

Restful peace my friends,

Milly

 

 

*Portion of Luke 10:41-42 New King James Version

**Psalms 23:1-3 New King James Version

One thought on “What to do?

  1. Well, I had to laugh, sounds like me! When will we learn? I can’t help but wonder how many people reading this are in the same boat?

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