Updating Milly,

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Happy February!  Welcome back to Milly’s Realm.  On New Year’s Day, I didn’t have a plan.  I needed time to grasp 2020.  The dream is no longer a planning exercise.  Everyone in the Realm is hitting the ground running!  The Princes are in school and everyone is working.  All my ‘impossible’ dreams are under construction!

23 Adonai directs a person’s steps, and He delights in his way.

24 He may stumble, but he won’t fall headlong, for Adonai holds him by the hand.

[Psalms 37:23-24 Complete Jewish Bible]

My schedule at work shifted, and I struggle to keep up my old schedule.  I like the new schedule but my writing is suffering while other parts of my life seem to be coming together.  I have made some decisions and set up an action plan for February 2020.

I need to attend my twelve-step meetings.  It is difficult to carve out the time to learn the steps.  It took me a few months to work through step one:  “Admitted we were powerless over alcohol.  That our lives had become unmanageable.”

I hate feeling powerless.  The admission was a stumbling block for me.  I didn’t want to open my eyes and see how unmanageable life has become, or accept that I cannot control people or situations.  Now I move forward to step two:

On Sunday I read “Came to believe that a Power greater than ourselves could restore us to sanity.”  My first thoughts were: “I got this!”  Doubt started to creep in “I don’t got this…” Then I saw HOPE in the words.  He restores me.  This is what He does, He restores.  My soul knows this, with these thoughts, I begin the lesson.

Next, I am stepping up my health game.  I’m visiting all of my doctors to find out what I need before the move next year.  My dentist has already come up with three crowns! {big smile}. I have returned to walking in the evening.  My walk/prayer buddy is motivating me to get back on track!

Then my husband and I walked through our house and listed the updates we need to prep our home for sale next year.  We found the house is in better shape than I thought.   And we have homework!

It was good to discover the Florida home doesn’t need a lot of repairs.  The work is cleaning out the thirty years of treasures and memories.  Then we spruce up the place.  A little flooring, paint, and staging is in the plan.  I am now learning to sell off my treasures on various platforms.  We have started repairs and sprucing up as I clean out the stuff.

In January I barely kept up with my blog posts.  I focused on writing the ending to Targeted and got stuck with a bad case of writers’ block.  The ending remains unfinished.  Nothing has been done on the Buried Secrets rewrite in the last three months.  I am adjusting the writing schedule again.  The next step is to break through the writer’s block.  The rough draft of Targeted is getting set aside and I am picking up Buried Secrets to restart the rewrite.  I will write my Blog Posts on the weekends from now on.  If this plan works, My Posts should be up by Monday each week starting this coming weekend.

Our mountain home is becoming a reality.  The septic system and well are installed. It looks like we hit a good vein of water.  Praise God for answering our prayers! Two builders looked at the home site and are working on estimates for us.

This part of the journey is like a steep hike.  I catch only glimpses of the view ahead.  The vistas thrill me but I still need to watch my step on the rocky path lest I stumble.  Like the journey, entrusting my dream home to a builder is exhilarating and scary.

This part of my journey is where I falter.  Building our home is the trail I have not navigated.  I’ve heard horror stories of this path.  We’ve also heard how wonderful this summit will be in our new life.

My fear of making wrong choices causes me to stumble on this path to my transition.  My Lord holds my hand as I step and stumble on the adventure journey.  He says, “Fear not.”  The great part is that even as I make mistakes, with God I move forward.

May His Hand keep you from falling on your adventure journey.  Blessings,

Milly

 

P.S.   Adonai literally means: “My Lord” [from the Complete Jewish Bible Glossary]

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