Yesterday morning, I woke in a good mood.  My post was ready to go.  I looked forward to a wonderful day.  It just needed the audio clip and a few tweaks.  I signed onto my work desktop and opened my email.  The email’s subject line put me on notice.  Trouble was brewing.  Uh oh… Do I open it or ignore it?

¹Truly God is good to Israel,

To such as are pure in heart.

² But as for me, my feet had almost stumbled;

My steps had nearly slipped.

³ For I was envious of the boastful,

When I saw the prosperity of the wicked.

[Psalms 73:1-3]

I opened the email, even with the warning bells going off in my head.  What if they call and I don’t know what is going on?  I justified to my soul.  Later I realized these words set the course for my day.

How do they get away with it?  Why am I following the rules?  The people in charge do nothing about it?  Not a good way to start my day!  I almost stumbled on the journey.

Taking a breath I recorded the audio clip then, prayed a little, and dove into work.  I wanted, no needed, to get something productive done.  The problems persisted and I became short-tempered.

On my lunch break, I listened to the audio clip.  The post was disjointed and confusing.  I rewrote it at lunch.  I went back over it at the break.  After work, I tried another grammar check, throwing out some of the sentences that didn’t fit.  After another rewrite, the writing wasn’t right.  What am I missing?  I had prayed before each rewrite.  Yeah, they were short prayers but…

I stopped… quieted myself in prayer and waited.  Then I looked at my writing.  I saw myself staring back in the form of words.  Not in a bad way.  I have to admit, the writing was a little prideful and a little rebellious.  You know the feeling, leaning on my own understanding – That thing?  I wrote the post for me.

I asked myself questions about my faith, comparing myself to men and women of God that I related to.  I included examples of people with qualities I would like to learn.  What I missed was waiting on the Lord.  I had an idea and ran in circles with it for three days.  I can see Him shaking His head.  “There she goes again.” He might have muttered to an angel or two.  Then I remembered Proverbs 3:5-6:

“Trust in the Lord with all your heart,

And lean not on your own understanding;

In all your ways acknowledge Him,

And He shall direct your paths.”

I found an answer to my question.  Not the one I expected.  Yes, I have faith, but I cannot compare my faith to the people of God in the bible.  They are examples for us.  That is true, but they are so much more than that!  Their faith and life stories testify to the Glory of God!

Their faith is theirs and my faith is mine.  We approach God in different ways because we are unique.  God only creates originals.  There are no copies.  We are original works of life crafted from God’s own hands.  Each of us has a faith unique and special to God.  In our own exceptional way, each of us testifies to God’s Glory.

Today’s work was not any easier than yesterday.  My day was joyful because He restored my footing and I was back in step with Him!

Glory be to God!  Bless His Holy Name!

Today, please remember this verse: “But those who wait on the Lord Shall renew their strength; They shall mount up with wings like eagles, They shall run and not be weary, They shall walk and not faint.” [Isaiah 40:31]

Milly

P.S.  Yes, the post ended up in my slush pile of writing lessons learned. {Smile}

All scripture is from the New King James Version