The journey I started five years ago is taking a turn into uncharted territory. At least uncharted for me. After many missteps and delays, I am about to step tentatively into the unknown. Within seven days, my dream career will end. I have heard the call and I follow.
It all boils down to a dream and a call tugging at my soul. It started ten years ago. In July 2011, I faced major surgery. The chronic pain levels were at a peak. I barely functioned as a ‘normal’ career mom. The doctors said the surgery would help. I knew something had to change. Afraid and unsure, I stepped closer to God.
There was a story I developed in my twenties. It was my escape when I needed to get away from the world. I spent years figuring out the plots. This is where I escaped to avoid stress and physical and emotional pain. The thing was, this story was all in my head. I had not written the it down. Finally, I told my husband, “I am facing a minimum six-week recovery.” Describing my secret story to him, I then said, “Good, bad or indifferent I want to write the story in my head.” I have been writing ever since. In the early 1990s I “returned to the fold.” Now I understand this was the first step to my return. But, one little step, the decision to write a book… Began a deeper personal relationship with God.
Then several years ago, life seemed hopeless and a chore. I’d met most of the goals I had set for myself. My children grew up, and I drafted book. Even with all the improvements in my health, the psychical limitations weighed on my mind. I became discouraged. I saw the same day in and day out routine ahead of me for the rest of my life. It looked like a boring existence. I asked, half to myself and half to God, “What is next?” Later that day, I read a devotional that touched me. When I read the chosen verse, He gave me a promise:
“For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, says the Lord, thoughts of peace and not of evil, to give you a future and a hope.” [Jeremiah 29:11 NKJV]
He promised me more to come. My life was not over! I would not just fade away. It is a verse for when we turn away from our little bubble and draw closer to the King. God’s promise became my touchstone, drawing me closer to Him than I ever thought possible. This verse is God’s promise to “*all who were carried away captive.” This living word is alive to us today. In 2020 we were carried away captive, we became captive to fear and distraction.
I can’t create destiny for myself or anyone else. I have never had the contacts or the money. We are the ones that depend on someone greater. People like us who know we won’t get anywhere in life without the One Higher Power. I am but one person writing a little blog with a few unpublished novels and a calling on her heart. Here is the truth, my path with God is beyond anything I ever imagined for myself. It is a miracle. I hope to share this miracle with you when I am released from my career.
I cannot straddle two worlds anymore. I have found our God wants to walk with us as our companion. Imagine He desires time with me, a mere speck in the universe. How could I say “wait Lord, let me finish this year!” I have walked with Him so far, I cannot refuse him when he showed me in April 2021 it was time to leave my career.
The calling is to encourage you and others to know Him better by deepening your relationship with God. In the same way, we deepen our relationships with our spouse, children, or best friend. Why draw closer? Because time is short. The Lord cries out to His People to wake from their distractions. He wants His people back. The Remnant must fight the fear and distractions of our age. The harvest will be ready soon. God needs His people back. It is time for me to follow Him full time. It is time for a spiritual adventure journey for all His peoples. Whether you are new to this relationship with the Most High God or and ol’ timer like me. Here is my prayer:
Heavenly Father. Gather us close, *Your are our rock, fortress and deliverer. We are Your people. We come before You, weak and scared. Forgive us for falling prey to the *traps of fear, security, and distraction. May everything we do and say give You the Glory. Thank you for your blessings. As we walk with you, we *magnify you and exalt Your Name. In Jesus’ name amen. In the name of the Father and the Son and the Holy Spirit amen.”
I encourage you to get to know God personally in all of His forms, Father, Son, and Holy Spirit. This is where our adventure lies. The adventure designed just for you and Him together.
To be continued…
* See Jeremiah 29:4 – “Thus says the Lord of hosts, the God of Israel, to all who were carried away captive, who I caused to be carried away from Jerusalem to Babylon:”
Psalm 18:2 – “The Lord is my rock and my fortress and my deliverer; My God, my strength, in whom I will trust; My shield and the horn of my salvation, my stronghold.”
Jeremiah 5:26 – “For among My people are found wicked men; They lie in wait as one who sets snares; They set a trap; They catch men.”
Psalm 34:1-3 – 1“I will bless the Lord at all times; His praise shall continually be in my mouth. 2 My soul shall make its boast in the Lord; The humble shall hear of it and be glad. 3 Oh, magnify the Lord with me, And let us exalt His name together.“
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