For God sent not his Son into the World to condemn the world; but that the world through him might be saved. John 3:17 (KJV)
On Sunday I posted how Jesus is my Soul Savior. For us Catholics, Easter is the holiest day of the year. It is a celebration of the resurrection. I sat in church imagining being one of the women at the tomb when it was found empty. Where is he? What happened? Then He reveals Himself to the faithful few. Astonishment, disbelief, Awe, all these feelings fall away to the realization: He has risen! He is our Savior. He saves our souls.
I started my writing on Sunday with what I was most excited about: God is faithful to heal our souls over and over again. Healing us at all levels. There was another piece, I learned step by step. I was not struck by a blinding revelation. God laid a firm foundation for me.
When I understood that He had laid the groundwork…I just had to share it. I thought of my castle (in this case my soul) without a firm foundation. It would not last. My walls would crumble no matter how strong I made them. The stone floor would eventually shift its way through the sand and clay to disappear under a carpet of groundcover.
On Holy Thursday, I was reading a devotional describing the lowering of the paralytic into a packed house where Jesus was teaching (Mark 2: 1-12). The author describes the paralytic and his friends (who by the way tore the roof off the house!) not knowing what to ask for. Mark 2:5 (NIV) describes what Jesus did: “When Jesus saw their faith, he said to the paralytic, ‘Son, your sins are forgiven’.”
Later after a debate ensues, Jesus questions in Mark 2:9 (NIV): “Which is easier: to say to the paralytic, ‘Your sins are forgiven,’ or to say, ‘Get up, take your mat and walk’? Thinking about this I found God gives us what we need when we need it. Even if we don’t know what we need. I also have to admit, I don’t see what God sees. He has to show me the meaning step by step, or I just don’t get it!
He gave the paralytic the most important healing: God’s forgiveness. Jesus’s statements caused me to pause. The forgiveness healed the man body and soul. I carried this with me in my thoughts through to Easter Sunday.
After Easter services, the pieces started to fall into place as we waited for the crowd to disperse. I made frantic notes so I could capture the awe and understanding in my heart. The prayer asking God to heal my soul finally made sense. He continues to forgive me. He continues to heal my soul. The scripture and the writing also made sense. It all tied together for me. Jesus gives us what we truly need. Our sins are forgiven.
Many times, like the prayer in church, I ask for something I do not understand at the time. For years, I asked him to heal my soul. Without the foundation built from my studies, my bible, spiritual authors, and spiritual leaders (like my Moms and dear friends!), I would not have understood this glimpse into how God blesses us. God laid the foundation for my eyes to be opened to his Glory on Easter Sunday.
I am truly blessed and thankful for all God has given me. The foundation he has built for me is stronger than I know. Following his path may not make sense to me as I walk over the stones. When I look back over my shoulder, I see how all the pieces fit together creating a beautiful, colorful mosaic path I stepped on as I traveled through my life.
He heals me body, mind, spirit, heart, and soul. But He is wise enough to know what healing I need most and he starts there. My sins are forgiven. My soul is healed.